Just maybe

I'm on my way home from California, he is still away at FITG until Thursday, it's been a week since I've seen him and it will be another 4 days until I do.

This short time away from him has been difficult but not as bad as I expected. Something about him and our relationship is so comforting. Maybe because my heart is happy. Maybe because I know he is it for me and a year away from him is just the beginning of our life long relationship. Maybe because he says things like "All day today I've missed you. I kept thinking in my head, I need to make time to call you.. That is completely new for me. Usually when I'm away, I'm focused and nothing else matters. Not anymore." Just knowing that this relationship is completely different not only for me, but for him too, is so reassuring. The fact that he actually tells me, is even better.

That statement alone melts my heart and makes me feel that just maybe, this really is going to be IT for me, for him, for us, we just have to get through this year long deployment.

I love him. With way more love then I even knew I had in me.

T-3 days until I can kiss his beautiful face.