I hate running. I hate the leg cramps, out of breath, want to die feeling that goes along with it. I haven't run in years because if it. My lifestyle has changed since those days though and I am much more fit now. I eat healthy, I attend the gym regularly and I am careful about not splurging.
So I decided to give running another whirl. Anthony was out with some friends on Sunday and I was feeling a bit sad about something so I laced up my sneakers and headed for the local track. I'm going to be honest, it took a good hour of convincing myself to get off the warm couch and out into the cold weather. But I did it. I even downloaded an app that tells me when to run, how long for, and then when to start walking again. It even pauses my music so I can hear her speak and then starts back when she is done. I love it and I think I am starting to love running! I'm excited for the next run. I love that it took my mind off of what was bothering me, made me feel good about myself and it was refreshing to conquer something I normally would despise.
With feeling proactive about finding ways to cope with this upcoming deployment, I've even enlisted my friends in helping. I know me and I know that when I get upset about something, I get REALLY upset and can wallow if I don't have something to look forward too. I'm giving myself 3 days to wallow and cry, and then I have a full schedule to keep me busy. Myself and 3 of my girlfriends are driving down state, hopping on the ferry and going to visit my friend Tricia for the day. We have food and a wine tasting to keep us busy. Then I have work during the day and grad school at nights. I have something planned for every weekend that first month he is gone.
On top of all this, I pray. I know that even with all these things to keep my mind busy, I'm still going to miss him and I'm still going to hurt. He is such a huge part of my life and I am not quite sure how him being gone is going to affect me. I just keep asking God to calm my fears and make us stronger during his time overseas. It's not going to be easy, but God has yet to fail me.
Having these things to look forward to, and being proactive, help me cope with him leaving.
It's great that you have a plan for when your hubby is on deployment (and also that your giving yourself a few days to accept the situation). I always have such a hard time getting out of the house during deployments! That is awesome that you have picked up running also! I ran cross country for 6 years, but my body just can't take it anymore and I miss it!
ReplyDeleteThank you! I know how I am and if I dont get out of the house, I will be a mess. It is so difficult though when all you want to do is cry, and loung in their clothes. :/
ReplyDeleteCross country always looked so tough to me! Even if you just ran, like a normal to slow pace, with some good music, I'm sure you would love it again!