This past week has been eye opening for me, especially about my relationship with him. He is preparing to leave for FiTG this week and I am headed to California today to visit my brother. It's Thursday, I haven't seen him since Monday and I won't see him until possibly Tuesday or Wednesday of next week. Honestly, this sucks.
I don't want to be that girl that constantly needs to hear his voice or get a cute text throughout the day but I do miss it already and he hasn't even left yet.
I don't know how to tell him I need him, especially after that conversation last week about how girls need and guys want. But, I need to know he's thinking of me, I need to hear that he cares. He is so good at telling me and showing me when we are physically together, but I have a feeling that the separation is going to be a whole new battle. I don't want him to feel like I am this needy, dependent, annoying girl, but a text asking about my day just isn't making me feel warm inside.
I am going to go on vacation and have some fun with my brother. I am going to try to distract myself and let him be a soldier. My feelings are the last thing he should be worried about right now as he prepares for a year long deployment.
Ugh.
I've just began reading your blog, and you have no idea how much what you've said is helping me. I'm new to dating a military man and so soon into our relationship, he will be getting deployed for maybe up to a year. Right now he's getting prepared for it, so he is still extremely busy. He hasn't even left yet, but i can already feel him drifting away from me. I'm scared. Scared out of my min that he will forget about me, leave me, or his love will just fade away. I don't want to be that annoying gf always worrying about that, but i have no idea any other way to cope with this. It's causing so many fights. But i want to thank you....your words are inspiring me to be strong. Thank you
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