Last week was really tough. It was tough letting go of the relationship I was used to with him and trying to find ways to still feel him in my life even though he is so far. I've never done a long distance relationship before, never had anybody worth it. I was wracking my brain at ways to get him to open up and stop being so cold when we would talk. I thought the best thing for me to do was to email him and let him know how my days have been going, like a recap. That way he can read it when he has time, reply and he doesn't have to step out of soldier mode in front of his troops. This way I get what I need and he can still be a guy.
Last week I tried it. I let him know I was feeling a little distressed and trying to find ways to get our communication to open up. He was immediately receptive and loved the idea just as much as I did. He replied back and told me about his day, commented about mine and reassured me that we are going to be just fine. I noticed things started to change once I opened up about what I needed from him. He started texting with me more during the day and we have been face timing at night. Last night was my favorite one yet! We laughed, he was happy and smiling. I feel like I am falling in love with him all over again. Just seeing his face and hearing him laugh completely makes my day. It makes all this worth it. In a few weeks things are going to change again, but I am confident that we are going to adapt to it and continue to make it a point to show each other how much we care.
It's amazing to me how even so far away, he gives me butterflies and makes me feel like the luckiest girl in the world. I just keep thinking about how amazing and strong our relationship will be when he comes home.
One week down, one week closer!
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