Truth is, deployments are tough. Your forced to deal with things that most people will never have to face. It's a constant battle of trying to keep them in your life and still a part of you, but letting go enough to not go insane.
Before he left, we had never had a fight. We had no reason to. We were crazy in love and agreed on almost all situations. We had a few differences but nothing that wasn't something we either compromised on or just let go.
We still don't fight, even two months into this sucky deployment. We have had a couple disagreements, but we are adult enough to know that right now is not the time to be fighting. We need to be supportive and loving. Both of us are going through a lot being separated, that hurts enough. No need to add tension and fighting to the mix. Anything worth fighting about, can be settled when he comes home. There's nothing we can really "settle" right now anyway. So what's the point?
I love that man. More than I even know was possible. This is the one relationship that I don't want to mess up. I'd say, so far, we are doing pretty damn good.
Yes I get jealous sometimes. Not because I don't trust him, but because I'm jealous of those that can be around him when I can't. I'm sure he gets jealous too that I'm home, hanging out with our friends and doing fun things when he can't. But even still, it's not worth fighting over.
There is nothing we can do about our situation, so we might as well make the best of it and come out stronger in the end.
He is my whole world and I will do whatever it take to be at his homecoming, come hell or high water, I'll be there.
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