I think part of the problem is, I am too focused on trying to get the attention I need from him and getting frustrated and resentful when I know he can't and doesn't give it.
It's Memorial Weekend, I'm down the beach with my friends and I'm too focused on trying to make myself available for when he spends his 10 minutes a day talking to me that I haven't really been having a good time, and that is so wrong on my part. I need to stop and focus on my life an enjoying the moments with my family and friends that I can. All I'm doing is making it harder on him, and hurting myself and my feelings in the process.
I need to stop checking my phone constantly, stop calculating the time difference every time I look at the clock, stop getting upset when he posts on Facebook but doesn't message me, and stop grasping for attention from him. I am going to try to enjoy my time alone while I have it. This is just making everything worse.
Turning off Skype, and I am off to spend time with my friends! :)
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