That IT feeling

Have you ever had that gut feeling where you know, this is it? Like, the IT feeling?

People would always tell me, you will know, you'll feel IT.

If you are anything like me, you have a list. Things and qualities that special person must have. I have been through a lot and have used those experiences to generate my list of expectations.

I used this list to date. If they weren't 6' tall and Italian with x, y, and z they were automatically off the radar. I have even dated someone who had everything on my list, but no sparks. Maybe it was a shield, maybe not, who knows.

When I met HIM, the list made sense. It's like my list was him. Somehow subconsciously I created a list of HIM. He had everything on it AND that IT feeling you get deep down in your gut.

Screw the list. Even if he didn't have everything on it, that gut, that IT feeling was enough to stop me in my tracks, and it did.

I knew it the first time we were together. The looks, the conversation, the giggles, the flush cheeks, it was inevitable.

I knew it because I had that feeling that bubbles in your belly and you instantly melt when they look at you.

The way a conversation flows and always ends in "me too!"

The way your mind races and your body turns to mush when they kiss you.

The way their hands cup your face and the sparkle in their eyes when they go to kiss you and how it speaks VOLUMES about what they are feeling and thinking.

The way your mind can never put any other image in your brain other then that sparkle in their eyes and it completely distracts everything you do.

The way your stomach knots up when you know you are going to see them that day. The anticipation and giddy giggles that somehow leak out of your mouth on said day.

The way someone mentions their name and it instantly puts a Texas size grin on your face and there is no denying that you have completely fallen in love.

Now... I understand when people say, you just know. You get that gut feeling and you just know IT.

The ironic part, he was my friend in high school, 10 years ago. We hung out, listened to music and generally hated the world together through our teenage years. Then he left and went into the service. I though about him over the years and how he was doing but never thought THIS would happen.

It's amazing how 10 years, some life experiences and a kiss will change your life and produce that IT feeling.