What will it be like?

My favorite thing to do at night time is lay in bed and dream about what it will be like the day he comes home. I dream about the look on his face when he sees me for the first time since he left. The conversation in the car on the way home. The first few hours of him being in the apartment. I dream about what his kisses will taste like and how our bodies will link back together on the couch as we watch tv, or what meal he will ask for first. I dream about what he will smell like and what it will feel like to rub my hands through his hair again. I can't wait to lay my head on his chest and once again hear his heart beat. I miss my other half so deeply. 

There are so many things that I long for when he returns. I just hope and pray that I can give him the space he needs to properly adjust back into civilian life and not overwhelm him. I hope that he longs for the same things that I do and we have a smooth transition. 

I pray that we will find balance again between our relationship, our friends, our careers and our family. I absolutely love my independence. I pray that I can once again balance my love for him with my love of identity. 

We are almost half way through this deployment. It feels amazing to know that we are really doing this, and we are so much stronger then when we started. Sometimes I go back and read those beginning posts and I feel for that girl who was so broken hearted at his leaving. I wish I could tell her that it really does get better, you get stronger, and thankfully, time keeps moving. 

Dreaming about when he returns is what keeps me going :)