God continues to deliver

At the beginning of this deployment, I knew it would bring my demons out. I knew it would bring all my issues and insecurities to the surface and it would either make or break us. I prayed that God would help me grow and heal during this deployment and have a way to put my past behind me. I wanted it to happen while he was deployed as a way to protect him. So he didn't have to see the mess that was my family and the scars it left behind. 

Little by little things happened in the family that brought 15 years of hurt and pain to the surface and my family is finally starting to deal with it. I tried to keep most of it from him, some out of protection, the rest out of embarrassment. I didn't want him to see me differently or love me less. 

Again he proves everything I know about relationships and love, wrong. He didn't budge when I started to tell him what was going on. He was compassionate and warm and protective. He let me be vulnerable which is not something I do well or often. He continues to stand by me and loves me with so much loyalty. 

I love him so much deeper than I even knew was possible. He knows me and my strengths and weaknesses and loves me despite them. That is an amazing feeling.